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Into the Void 2.0
04:21
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I've been feeling trapped inside myself
Claustrophobic, more than a little manic
I've been screaming into the Void in my own head
Draped in anger to hide the panic
I'm tired of trying to beat the pain away
Fists in the walls until they fall apart
Only now have I realized I'm not at all okay
It's not much but it's a start
I never learned to love myself
Living in a world that said I didn't deserve it
I begged for love from someone else
But I had to earn it
I wake up at 6am, my heart is racing
From watching you walk away again
I've had this dream so many times I gave up on chasing
But god damn I miss my best friend
I feel like I am fucking losing control
But that cannot be true
You can't lose something you never had before
So maybe I never lost you
Beloved be my strength when I am weak
Beloved wrap me in your holy embrace
Beloved move through me and help me see
The face of God in my own face
Blame me, beloved
Lay me, Beloved
Hate me, beloved
Save me, Beloved
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staring into my reflection trying to like what I see
in the mirror I see faces staring and laughing at me
broken glass and bloody knuckles cannot dull the pain
I tell myself that they don't know me and I don't care what they say
wishing that was true
wondering if they're right
so easy to believe
try as I might
what if it's all true
what if I am wrong
why can't I believe
the words to my own song:
you are truly loved
you are truly good
what you dream is yours to do
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3. |
Creation Song
04:26
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Our lives do not belong to you
We are human beings
Living our own lives
Participating in
God's creation
Making ourselves up
As we go along
Is our holy charge
Our very purpose
What we won't do
Is make somebody else
We do not know
What's inside of them
The only eyes
We can see through
Are the eyes
We live behind
And don't forget
There is only one
Commandment now
LOVE
Hate is not a religion
The only religion is love
[Love] is your only God
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Hell
05:56
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[In Basque] "Get her out? Of Hell? Little girl, you're very funny. No one gets out of Hell."
Do you believe in Heaven?
Do you believe in Hell?
Do you believe in Heaven?
Do you believe in Hell?
Not a gate in the clouds
Or a gate underground
Do you believe in Heaven?
Do you believe in Hell?
There is a hell that's very real
Right here and now
Existing in our very world
It's all around us
It lives inside of everyone
We manifest it
When we live in our fear and hate
There is No Exit
Hell is the electricity they use to cure us
Hell is a racist pig
Hell is a man who thinks he can have all the world
Or being poor and sick
We have the power inside us
Creating Heaven and Hell
This is a world of miracles
And we are miracles as well
We are so much more than we know
Creation's imagination
We have the power inside us
Creating Heaven and Hell
There is a hell that's very real
Right here and now
Existing in our very world
It's all around us
It lives inside of everyone
We manifest it
When we live in our fear and hate
There is No Exit
Hell is the electricity they use to cure us
Hell is a racist pig
Hell is a man who thinks he can have all the world
Or being poor and sick
God is everything and God is everyone
If you're looking for God you won't find Them in a gun
You'll find Them in the soul of a fellow being
Or down in the soil where the Earth is breathing
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5. |
Horror Story
05:20
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They were just a little kid with no friends. No one gave a damn about them.
All of their life was noise and pain and apathy from whom they needed love.
Erosion of heart and mind and soul left them with a void inside.
Pushing and pushing until one day they got pushed right over the edge.
They didn't mean to lose control and lash out at the world.
It just happened so fast, the next thing they knew the damage was done.
Nothing could change what they had done or what they had become.
There was only one thing left: the need to fill the void.
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Why
03:13
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Why are you doing this to me?
What have I done?
So many sorries
When do I get one?
I try to talk to you
So many times
Words failing, turning into
Smoke on the inside
I would do anything
Just to make you smile
I'm sick and tired of waiting
And wondering why
Why are you doing this to me?
And I thought we were family
I clung to you so desperately
When did you start to hate me?
Why are you doing this to me?
What have I done?
So many sorries
When do I get one?
I know I've made mistakes and
I've let you down
Your judgment fueled my self-hate
And my self-doubt
I've never been so low and
Empty inside
It's a long climb out of the hole but I
I got nothing but time
Why are you doing this to me?
And I thought we were family
I clung to you so desperately
When did you start to hate me?
Why are you doing this to me?
What have I done?
So many sorries
When do I get one?
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Power
05:08
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I am the power
I am control
I am the body
I am the soul
I am the bully chiseling into the center of your heart
I am the landlord throwing out tenants and raising rent again
I am the boss I will not be challenged your life belongs to me
I am the cop that's taking you in and you die if you resist
I am the judge that's ruining your life when you step over the line
I am the congressman making new laws against apostasy
I am the killer playing God
I am the rapist taking what's mine
I am the minister preaching damnation
I am the billionaire capitalist
I am the systems that want you distracted
I am the systems that feed on the lies
I am the systems that keep you enslaved now
I am the systems that won't let you breathe
I am the power
I am the cop that's taking you in and you die if you resist
I am the judge that's ruining your life when you step over the line
I am the congressman making new laws against apostasy
I am the president going to war for the freedom to control
I am the power
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8. |
Hymn I: Horn of Abraxas
04:49
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Hymn II: Names of G-d
04:13
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Light in my darkest days
Grace when I am in need
Time in the infinite
Space with no living end
Stars blanketing the sky
Clouds passing overhead
Leaves of my favorite tree
Eyes of a human being
Words of prophetic tongues
Songs playing in the heart
Wind blowing through the soul
Rain falling to the earth
Bones carrying me on
Lungs nourishing the blood
Veins helping it to flow
Heart pumping constantly
Free will to live and be
Fate guiding me along
Mind choosing destiny
Soul knows the path by heart
Hope in the great despair
Truth in the face of lies
Faith with the gift of doubt
Love unconditional
God is unknowable
God is eternity
God is unnamable
God is infinity
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Hymn III: Our Faith
07:31
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Our faith is not stone
Weighing us down
Blocking our path
Our faith is the sea
Never the same
Always the same
Eternity's breath
Filling our lungs
Calling us home
Infinity's voice
Springs from our tongues
Echoing Yours
Our faith is the sky
Endlessly high and far
Our faith is the wind
Moving like spirit through
Our Word is the world
Wild and beautiful
Our Word is all truth
Spoken from love and care
We seekers of Why
We lovers of truth
We know we know naught
We humble ourselves
Prostrating at
The feet of the World
We gather as one
We sing for our lives
(We humble ourselves
Prostrating at
The feet of the World)
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Hymn IV: Holy War
07:02
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We are in a holy war within
We have built a nation born in sin
We are haunted by our holy ghosts
We must fight for our very souls
Take up your armor
Take up your sword
Throw down the empire
Throw down the lords
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ADINFINITUM Miami, Florida
ADINFINITUM (they/them/theirs) is a music project encompassing industrial, EBM, post-metal, drone, acoustic, progressive electronic, modern classical, and film score music. My passion and purpose is to use my creativity to live and express my values and change the lives of lovers of dark music and films. ... more
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